Ayaka - Okaeri (おかえり)

Okaeri sweet home
Kaeru bashou yeah
Ai wo arigatou

Mata heiki no furi wo shite
Kanashimi no iro wo nuritsubushite
Waratte shimaun desu
Shinjiru koto no taisetsusa
Wakatteru no ni iza to iu toki
Utagatte shimau yeah

Karappo no karada
Nagareru toki ni
Fuiteshimaisou ni naru kedo
Anata no koto dakishimetai
Kono kimochi katsugi ugokasu no

Okaeri I’m home
Hitogoto de mitasareru kokoro
Okaeri sweet home
Kaeru bashou yeah
Ai wo arigatou
Sweet home

Jibun no koto bakkari wo
Kangaeru otona wa zuruin da to
Omotteitan desu
Demo hisshi ni kaeru koto wo
Sakenderu hito mo iru’n da
Yatto shitta’n desu

Atarimae no shiawase nanka
Kono sekai ni hitotsu mo nai
Anata no tame, sou omoeta
Kono kimochi katsugi ugokasu no

Okaeri I’m home
Supiido ga kasokushiteku mainichi
Okaeri sweet home
Kawaranai zutto aru keshiki
Sweet home

Sagashite nakushita
Kokoro no kizu ga
Tachimukau tsuyosa ni kawareta no wa
“okaeri” ga atta kara

Okaeri I´m home
Hitogoto de mitasareru kokoro
Okaeri sweet home
Kaeru bashou yeah
Ai wo arigatou

Okaeri I’m home
Daijoubu anata ga iru kara
Okaeri sweet home
Mattete ne mou sugu tsuku kara
Sweet home
Oh yeah
Okaeri…sweet home

Why you placed your hand a few seconds on my face giving me a sad face when i was about to leave? Even need a valid reason for your approval allowing me to leave.
I've stayed there for 4 hours plus and yet you told me that it was fast for me to leave.
Your friends stayed less than 4 hours, you didn't say much to let them go without a reason.

To be frank, when that time we started playing and hitting each other, the feeling was great like the past we used to have.

In the first place, I've decided to leave you is because you were the first who neglected me.
So i quickly plan to leave you incase my emotions got worst in regards to our relationship.
Because of that, if those shows that I've watched, and songs that i have listen to are related to friendship, relationship and separation. Naturally, I will feel sad or sour. Worst! crying over it...

If one of my friend and her close friend's relationship got sour, I will try to help my friend to restore back a little of their relationships. Sometimes, I even help without them knowing that I'm pulling them back together.

I've learnt a lot from this incident.
To prevent by awareness to maintain the relationship if possible with the current friends I have.

Really bullshit if somebody ask you to forget the memories.
Naturally you will never forget even if you try to erase. But it does go blurry sometimes.
That perticular person have already painted a little colours in your life.
Colours that always shines in you that you cant forget.
Only thing to do is just try not to think about your past, or possible, find a better person that can be replaced and pour out greater colours.
So you won't feel sad if you get to think about your past again.
Unless the person really hurt you deeply.

Inner me... with thanks.

Despite of work and studies making me busier each day, i've learn to organise my time and priority.
Me, being independent always throughout the year, really want to thank the Lord for giving me the encouragement, strength, wisdom and awareness in certain situation happen.
Jehovah Jireh, providing the best to what i need and Jehovah Rapha, who healed me quickly when I'm sick. Learning to rely on Christ always in any situation whether if it's good or bad, happy or sad, troubled at times and even problems I've encounter. He will be the one i will go to, and cast all my burdens to Him.
For me being independent, I'm not alone.
I have the Lord watching over me.
He is there always and not silent.