stress and pressure!

Great my stress is increasing. I can't take it any longer.
I feel very tired.. I have the time to rest BUT, i can't rest too long and i can't rest peacefully as well. Still got things to do and to prepare.
I'm a volunteer of SYFC for 6 months(beginner in the process of learning from a staff there), Church(7:30pm Prayer meet Wed, Thursday 7:30pm Choir, Friday 6pm plus or even earlier if i'm serving 3pm plus YAF Fellowship, Saturday 10am to 12 Bible Trail and 4pm to 6pm Tyrannus class plus 6pm to 9pm sports outing with YAF, Sunday Ushering), School final project (rushing), I still need to prepare whatever i need to do, follow up with students/my church members and to go out with my friends(who i dont meet up for a long time) and family(i still haven go out with them yet). I dont know how man. Time table that i've done slightly useless at the moment. I want to request to minues my voluntory work in SYFC 6 months to 3.

I wonder how my cousin able to handle so many things? She's only 19 and she is a conductor for her CCA in school ang klong (she even need to attend the practises), Studies, School Christian fellowship(i forget her roll there), A level's? student of syfc to meet her syfc staff for bible study or any program and even Church rolls as group leader and treasurer or some programmes as well.
She always out of the house and sometimes at night then will reach home. She always chiong her studies until late at night or even midnight then she sleep.
Her parents started to complain to her that they seldom see her at home to study etc.. so testimony wise towards her parents especially her dad probably not very good. Alot of our church sisters ask her to let go some of her commitments but she can't. It's kinda compulsory for her to be committed in certain areas.

Yesterday morning, i woke up to draw my friend's birthday card. I spent 2 hours drawing her card and i got a headache becoz i nv eat my breakfast.
After finish drawing the card, i quickly grab something to eat if not i will vomit.
But don't worry I'm fine.

Today i was late for half and hour for my class. I'm so lazy to go school in afternoon time. That is the time i having my afternoon nap if i'm tired. I can choose not to attend school becoz i only need to go school to do my project that's all. I went to school for only 1 hours plus then i went home already. My friends all started leaving the classroom heading their way home. Not bad, at least i did my design for my project. Thursday, my teacher need to see and mark our Introduction page and Log-in page as our first assignment. Hai i need to chiong liao.

My dear gal nv go for class today, she don't feel like coming to school. But She gave me a call when i'm doing my project to ask see whether our teacher has given any important things for us to take note.
Starting when she called me, I ask her "who are you?" haha then she got abit angry and say "huh? you don't know who am I?" Then i think for quite sometime then I mention her name and then she " Han Na " (related word Ya La)
The I say " Haiya! I thought who.." "Becoz don't really talk to you on the phone often so how I know?" My dear friend use her house number to call and i nv save ppl's house number. I recognise ppl's voice through talking on the phone.
Anyway tml she will come back to school to disturb me again. That is what she sms me and ask me to dream of her tonight. I reply "ya i will dream of you disturbing me" (another words to say.. Nightmare)

haha crazy friends.

today my friend keep hugging my left hand, massaging and rubbing my right hand when I'm doing my project. For the whole two hours I didn't get to do anything becoz my dear girl keep coming to my place to disturb me. Keep rubbing my right hand becoz she said my skin quite smooth and she like to touch. That time my right hand was on the computer mouse trying to design my layout for my project. Hai! I shouldn't tell her that when she keep rubbing my right hand, my mouse keep shaking as well and i can't do anything. After telling her she more want to disturb me. urgh...
Ended up entertaining her in class. But i was contented as i can entertain her today. I don't really know how to talk or pamper her sometimes when she need somebody to be by her side to company her. I'm the only gal in class she will share about her thoughts and feelings. I roughly know how to respond sometimes although i don't really know what she's thinking or trying to bring out. She's the only friend that i can't really trace her feelings.

She felt like quitting school man becoz nobody help her sometimes, talk to her and she don't really have the interest to study anymore. One or two of my friends who are quite close to her and to share her thoughts has shifted to another class. One of them is my best partner in class but not anymore due to spilt classes. sad~!
Few months later we are going to graduate on march or april. If she quit now then it will be a waste for her.

today went shopping with yun fang ( neoprint partner ). Quite fun lah especially when she hold my hand and we try to bump each other onto the dustbin at the walk way or will walk very fast together. We went several places to shop today.

Great! i settled my friend's birthday present. hahaha

Friends, are back and leaving us.

Yup.. Robert was back to Singapore. Great to see him today at prayer meeting.
Tml Hong Liang's turn to leave Singapore back to China for few months?
We met You Nice "Eunice Yip" yesterday at Toa Payoh. We did had lots of fun and laughters.
She will be leaving Singapore on second day of Chinese New Year 8/2/08 night.
2 and 3 Feb few of our sisters are going back to China too for Chinese New Year till 18/3/08.
Probably Yao qi's leaving on 18/3/08 when our sisters are back to Singapore on that date.

For those brothers and sisters who are leaving Singapore, remember to keep them in prayer.

Apologetics rap (interesting)

I found this in a website. Too bad i dont really know how the rythem goes to rap. No music was given, only lyrics. Anyway just read or try to rap with your own rythem.

PERSON 1
Now some people say, "God doesn't exist."
I don't know how such rumors persist.
They say, "We're only a product of chance."
I wouldn't be quick to take that stance
Cause if God is unreal we're nothing but dust
no basis for saying what's just and unjust
no basis for meaning and purpose in life
no basis for love, no basis for strife
The existence of God is really a must
cause people don't really act like dust

PERSON 2A
Some people say, "If God is so real,
why do I suffer so much,
why isn't my life ideal?"

PERSON 2B
The problem's not with God,
the problem's with you.
Give your life back to God,
and He'll give life back to you.

PERSON 3
Now some people ask, "How can I know God has spoken?"
Just read His word and I'm not jokin.
Raising the dead and healing the blind.
Oh, there's lots of proofs, you'll find.
In the presence of thousands, both friend and foe.
things not done in secret, don't you know.
For when God speaks His word, He understands
we need proof it's His and not man's.

PERSON 4A
Now some people say, "No peace can I find
no peace in the world, no peace in my mind."

PERSON 4B
Make peace with God and soon you will see
you have peace in your heart and a new destiny.

PERSON 5A
"But maybe all we need for the world to be nice,
is for people to be good. Take my advice"

PERSON 5B
But can you put a bandaid on cancer?
Ethics is nice, but its' no answer.
The problem with people is we're born in sin
but Jesus said you must be born again.
For God so loved the world that He
gave his Son (for you and me).
Those that believe will never die.
but live forever that's no lie.
Freely forgiven, God paid the price,
to wipe out our sins. Now isn't that nice!

PERSON 6A
"But wait, I'm not as bad as you say.
I don't kill people, and I'm not gay."

PERSON 6B
If you think you're good and think you're right
why not turn to God and look at the light?

When are you coming home - Cindy D Martin

© 2006 Cindy D Martin

November 24 2007 Hether an... (more)
Added: November 19, 2006
© 2006 Cindy D Martin
November 24 2007 Hether and Cindy have a CD available on Ebay!

NEW! Heather's brother is back in the USA!!!

The Martin family would like to thank all who voted for Heather's video in the YouTube Awards!
Also thank you for all of the prayers and kind remarks.




This song is not meant to make a political statement of any kind. It's simply about a family that is missing a brother. The young man who joined the army did so of his own free will. He was 20 years old and his parents played no part in his decision to serve his country. They are proud to have such a brave son.

I am only the best friend (for 34 years) of the mother, Cindy. It is my honor to post this video on YouTube. All of the wonderful messages that I have received are being forwarded to Heather and her mother.

Heather loves to sing. Since she was small she has always tried to get to the microphone first at church so she could sing. She always loved karaoke and would beg for the mic. She still loves singing more than just about anything.
Heather loves her brother and misses him. She has many memories of him. He comes home every chance he gets and will probably get to come home for a short time in February or March.

Before I truned on the camera Heather was really acting silly and laughing. What many of you have said looks like crying at the first is just Heather rubbing her eyes like any 6 year old might do.
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6 year old Heather Martin sings a song that her mother wrote for her Brother Shaun who is serving in Iraq. The song is written from Heather's point of view.

Lyrics

When Are You Coming Home

copyright © 2006 Cindy D Martin

You were almost sixteen when I came into the world.
Mom and Dad had you first then 3 more boys I'm the baby girl.
I sure have a lot to look up to in you, you're really smart and funny with a big heart too.
After one year of college you knew what you had to do.
It's just like you wanting to help with the war.
So you joined the army when I was only 4.
This time of year we talk of big plans but you're over seas in some distant land.
You can't be here for Christmas, I don't understand.
Chorus:
When are you coming home, Shaun?
When are you coming home?!
We lit up the house like we always do but it doesn't seem bright 'cause we can't have you.
In my prayers I ask God to keep you safe.
And I'm trying to be really brave.
Tell me that the fighting's through.
Come home!
I really miss you.

It's hard to enjoy the holidays without you.
But we're so proud of you and all the red white and blue.
Remember that Jesus is your best friend,
And someday our families will be together again.
Wow! You know we'll have a great big party then.

Chorus

I want to show you how tall I've grown and introduce you to my new friends at school.
Maybe we could go and get some ice cream together but I really don't care what we do.

Britian's Got Talent- 6 years old Connie

Wow! Brilliant angel's voice she had. I'm simply impress and shock when she started singing. Gosh~ Accurate pitch.

YAF Fellowship

I enjoy the fellowship today. Good to see new nurses and friends who were among us.
Shiao Hui's group(I'm also a member of shao's group) get to serve today with other group members volunteer to help out in serving as well. We, local's youth learn to cook from the china brothers and sisters too. I enjoy serving with them and through serving together, our relationship wit one another gets better too. Give thanks to God for the wonderful time we had together.

See what Shao bin has done with the fruits...

Since last friday i was impress by Shao Ping's cutting and cooking skill. Last friday he cut all the meats and vegetables without even looking at his finger. He was watching the television and cutting all the vegetables at the same time. Scary!

now fellowship with one another...

Time management.

Today, i met up with Pei ling(SYFC Staff) to discuss about my commitments in Singapore Youth For Christ and my commitments in Church.

She asked me this question, "What or How do you see yourself commit in SYFC?"
As I think back what i had done for syfc, I feel that I didn't really do much and its the same goes to my church.

This year I focus too much on my ITE school attachment for 2 months 15 Oct to 14 Dec. Because I scare i couldn't get better grades or rather fail my attachment.
But I like to thank God that I scored full marks for my attachment :) yay!

I always tell people i'm busy, my friends sees me as busy girl because when my friends ask me out or my sales rep ask me to work for her in particular dates. I always couldn't make it and often rejects their invitations and offers. Sorry to my friends whom I always replied and say no to you. I don't feel good sometimes to say no or sorry that i couldn't make it for my friends to join them for shopping, movie and gathering. But i did sms to some of my friends to update them on their daily basis like currently what are they doing?, working?, how's school and etc...
This year I will try to dig out my time to go out with my friends.
Yesterday one of my friends even asked me something like, "Why I need to serve in church?" I forgotten what really was his question but he mention something related to serve and church.
But i did explain to him and his response was "Oh Ok" or "ok."
Before that question he invite me to go to his 21st birthday party. My reply to him was "Oh ok, i see how then i will let you know." I was quite surprise and wonder why he brought out this question. Due to my commitment in church and couldn't attend certain gatherings? probably...But his question didn't really disturb me because nothing can hold me back by serving The King.

SYFC have a few things to build me up and to equip me with. Firstly, teach me how to lead bible study. Secondly, how to answer political questions. I'm happy that i get to learn and answer in biblical way. I need to put my time and effort to remember and to go through what i have learn.
Probably i get to learn how to talk properly too. I'm not gifted in speaking and language but I will try my very best to talk if i need to.

I going to schedule my time for this year and pass my time table to Pei ling to see. I really need to manage my time, to stick with it so i able to see my free time to do other things and to be more organize with my programmes.

With the time table, I'm able to see my free time as well as to use it wisely.

Thanksgiving night (COUNTDOWN!)

Yup! I had a wonderful night at Dr Yip's house.
We had few new friends with us too.

GOOD NEWS!
OUR DEAR WEI WEI HAS ACCEPTED THE LORD ON YEAR 2008 1/1/08
I'm super happy for her. She told us that she actually wanted to accept the Lord into her life long ago, i think probably she's not ready or not the time yet to accept the Lord. ANYWAY! we shall call her sister from today onwards. :) Give thanks for the wonderful news.

Me & Wei Wei

Check out the pics we had...

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